A Necessary Muddling up of Things

I am really not very interested in metaposts, but sometimes I do feel the need to clarify things, and this is one of those times.

I’ve read my last post a few times, in my obsessive manner. And I get a cold feeling in my gut every time I read this line:

“I’m pretty sure that most of the people I pass on the streets arent precisely determined to undermine everything I stand for.”

It’s not because of the misplaced preposition, if that’s what you’re thinking. It’s because I’m pretty sure that most of the people I pass on the streets are, indeed, precisely determined to undermine everything I stand for.

Maybe it has something to do with the streets I walk on. Maybe it’s because of the people I pass by. But I’m very sure, the more I think about it, that a lot of people are conspiring to destroy freedom, progress and thoughtfulness. And it’s people like me who deny it who are at least partly to blame for what is sure to be the downfall of American civilization. Which is why I felt the need to retract my statement. It was written in a fit of self-doubt and hate, and it doesn’t deserve to go unchecked.

I’m not going to destroy an entire day’s posting with these thoughts, however. I’m not letting myself off the hook that easily. I’m creating a life for a man named Martin, and through him you will see how tragic things have become. And for him, tomorrow’s words await. He deserves better than being delayed by these explanations and apologies.

- posted by seanmh @ 10:38 AM